Games Turn Me Off

I get turned off very easily
I don't like childish games
Little immature things people do to get your attention but then take it back a while later
I don't like compulsive flirts, I like to feel special
And I don't like hot and cold behavior - it turns me hot and cold
I like realness, no matter what the situation or outcome
Be real, be honest, be transparent and be open but also kind
I'm an open book, if you ask the right questions
if you show genuine interest and aren't being fake
So I enjoy people who are very open and open minded as well,
it makes it easier for me to be
I don't like games or secrecy or having to wonder about everything
I don't play games...
unless I'm being played with, then I will play that game right back until I decide you aren't even worth another fucking second and cut you off
I like people are secure and respectful
People who listen to me - what my mouth is saying and what my body is saying
People who show me they like me, who give attention and don't take it away after it is given
I like people who are brave and go for what they want and put themselves out there
It's hard for me to put myself out there and be brave though I do make attempts
but only for someone I feel is special, so if I put myself out there, don't play with me
There is nothing worse than thinking someone is going to be a genuine, special person and be disappointed in what they show you
I am not an IN YOUR FACE kind of woman
I'm very subtle in every fucking way
I like people who can understand and appreciate my subtleties and aren't blind to it
I like a person who can read me - or at least tries
who understands and respects not just my light and sweet side but also my dark side
who appreciates and gets my sense of humor - who has a sense of humor as awesome and weird as mine
I have never met anyone like that though
I just keep searching
And searching
I thought I had found it but learned early on that things weren't what they seemed
And I got turned off
So I feel like I am endlessly wandering and searching for something or someone
I don't know what the relationship would entail and I don't have any expectations for anyone
I'm not trying to fall in love but I would like a real connection based on mutual respect
but if you want to turn me on and keep me turned on, don't play fucking mind games with me
Respect and appreciate my mind, my emotions and my body
And be fucking honest

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