Hanging On By A Hair

His love borders on obsession
it's a thin line easy to cross
He hurt me so bad in the beginning
now he's too hard for me to trust
I wish I could love him like I want to
the way I think of loving
He's the one I agreed my life to
but sometimes I think we're done
Yet I don't want to lose him
because then what would I do
what if there's nothing else for me
that possibility is true
I'll spend the rest of my life alone
I'll be lonely forever
never finding my heart a home
I don't know how much time he has left
his cancer could still come back
I want to give him all that I can
He deserves to be happy and relaxed
I know all that he wants, I am
there's no denying that
I've always been so devoted
to whomever my partner may be
loyal to a fault
but that was before he hurt me so terribly
Now I don't know what I'm doing
some days I don't know who I am
I know a part of me still loves him
so I've got to do all that I can.

Tonya Marie
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