Just A Fool

(originally posted on my Tumblr @ itsmetonyamarie)

JUST A FOOL

 I wanted him to want me
the way I wanted him -
desperately, passionately, hopelessly,
I wanted to feel him deep within.
I wanted him to ache for my touch, the way I ached for his.
I made my longing known - well known...
He had to know...that it was him who was immortalized within my words
He knew I wanted him and he lied right to my face, when he said he didn't think about me or want me in any way,
Just to turn around and tell me there's more he'd like to say
with that lustful look in his eyes that made me feel this way
He's a liar
So why did I want him so damn much?
He might have thought he was doing the right thing, when he drove away
Doing me a favor, doing the right thing for himself, so careful not to leave a trail
but he knew the desire he'd stirred up inside of me was tearing me apart
He still drove away with a smile and a tiny piece of my heart
Why did I want him? Why do I think about him still?
When he denied me what I needed - a few simple words to let me know what he felt
when he looked at me and that it was real.
...but I was just a joke, a game, an emotional toy to him...
I keep asking myself
What exactly did I see in him? Why did I let the way he looked at me make me
want him inside me so bad? Why am I such a fool?
I'm just a fool.

--by Tonya Marie

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